Surrendering all
that fills my hands
to the One that fills
my heart
Our family has been in a season of change for quite some time now. I don’t like change- not one little bit. I like predictability and to know what to expect out of life. I also know that my greatest personal growth has come from circumstances that have catapulted me into a change.
I let go of a full time job. It was scary. I felt a little bit like I had “failed”. But ultimately I realized that I learned a TON in that year and I also realized how much I missed teaching music and having music be my vocation. I went back to teaching piano and voice lessons this past February, and the Lord has GREATLY blessed me with over 30 students! By the way- I have so many awesome, funny, heart-warming stories to tell you 🙂
We let go of doing things that don’t bring us joy. So it is not a shock to anyone that knows us that we are not outdoorsy people. We don’t enjoy yard work and we don’t spend a lot of time in our yard. (maybe because it doesn’t look so good, lol…) Instead of taking on the daunting task of cutting back 19 years of overgrown bushes and trees, we reached out to a local friend who owns his own business to help us take care of these things. We are making more time to do things we enjoy while also contributing to a local business- and now our front yard looks amazing! WIN WIN WIN!
I’m learning to let go of my children. My children are not kids anymore- they are young adults. We dropped our youngest daughter off at college for the first time, and I cried like a baby. It was hard to put into words, but after having complete oversight of everything they did and everywhere they went for so many years, it filled me with such anxiety to leave her there and let her go. I called her a couple of days ago and she sounded great. She was doing laundry and taking care of all kinds of things. I asked her if she missed being at home and she said NOPE! Her bed in her dorm is even more comfy than the one at home. That was all it took for me to realize that everything we have done as parents for the last (almost) 18 years has prepared her for this, and she is doing great! And if she was good- then I am good, too! Since that call I have been able to let go of my anxious thoughts and trust God with the rest.
I’m letting go of a bunch of junk in my house! After living here for 19 years, we have accumulated so much stuff! I am getting rid of it little by little- and it feels sooo good.
Cluttered house = cluttered mind.
I’m letting go of expectations. Now that we are almost completely “empty nesters” and middle aged, it is easy for me to think about all the dreams I have had and the expectations of where I would be career wise at this point in my life. What I am doing now is not what I planned on doing. But I get to make music with some amazing people and I get to make a positive impact on their lives every week- and that brings me great joy! I am learning that it’s ok to not be busy all the time and that it’s ok to actually enjoy life. Since my husband works from home full time now, we are able to spend more time together than we EVER have! I never would have predicted how amazing my life would be today. God’s plan for my life has been far better than my own could have ever been!
So I continue to let go and surrender my days to the Lord- and embrace all of Him! He has been good to me and I have been blessed!
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland. -Isaiah 43:18-19