I Sing Because I'm Free

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take the picture


 blink too fast 

and before you know it 

the moment is gone 

with nothing to show for it 


tick tock ticking- 

time’s passing me by 

so I’ll keep my camera 

close to my eye 


I had the joy of spending the entire day with my oldest daughter this past weekend.  It was a perfect day.  I have spent a lot of time with both girls recently as they have had multiple snow days off of school, added onto the 2+ weeks off for Christmas break… let’s just say the girls were getting a little tired of one another!  They are as different as night and day, and being with the both of them can be emotionally and mentally exhausting.  And honestly, we were all ready to get back into a routine!

So back to my day… we took a road trip, and my normally quiet, tired teen was bubbly, giggly, and chatty the entire day!  We talked about everything from school to politics to her friends- all the things I wish she would talk about with me ALL of the time!

Having her all to myself allowed me to appreciate her so much more…how she likes peace and quiet,  how she, too,  loves coffee (just like me!), and her desire to have as many dogs as she can possibly take care of when she’s on her own.

As we were heading home that evening, I noticed the sky was brewing up a beautiful sunset.  I wanted to enjoy every second of that evening.

“Living in the moment is so overrated, ” my daughter told me.

“What do you mean?” I asked her.

“Like how everyone says not to take pictures- to just enjoy the moments… that’s silly. Take the picture. Then you’ll always have something to look back on to remember the moments.”

Wise words from my (almost) 15 year old-

and I even have a few pictures to remember it 🙂

You who are young, be happy while you are young, and let your heart give you joy in the days of your youth. 

Ecclesiastes 11:9


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Free at last

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I am free 

like a bird 

flying high I soar 

because I’m not

weighed down 


the chains


the shackles


and I am feeling- 

pretty swell 

because you see- 

I am finally 


New Year’s Eve marked the one year anniversary that I began following the Trim Healthy Mama plan. It has been a year of food freedom for me- but so much more than that!  For years I have been a slave to counting calories- how many calories I consume at each meal and how many calories I burn at each workout.  Even on the days when I would “take a break”… I would still keep a running tab in my head.

And the worst part of it all?  None of that effort made any difference!  No matter how much I worked out, no matter how carefully I watched my calorie intake- I couldn’t lose a pound to save my life!!  For years I felt defeated and discouraged.  My body hurt all the time and I had no energy.

I have my friend, Natalee to thank for introducing me to the Trim Healthy Mama plan.  Just give it a try, she told me.  So I began reading about it and checking out recipes on Pinterest.  I started looking for ways to make the things I already eat fit in with the program. And the great things is that I have found ways to eat everything I love!

For all of 2017, I have not counted a single calorie! That is a miracle for me!  And I have worked out less this past year than I have in the last 15 years!  And praise the Lord- at 40,  I feel better than ever!  I have lost 35 pounds over this past year and I have gained so much more-


-food freedom 

-freedom from the scale 

-self confidence

Thank God Almighty-  I am free at last!!


So if the Son sets you free, you are truly free.  John 8:36 






rise and shine


5 am, eyes open wide

the morning light

called me outside


the moon and sun

played hide and seek

behind the clouds and mountain’s peak


And when the sun

did finally rise

His splendor shone before my eyes


the sky was crystal clear  

My hubby and I took a recent trip to the mountains and one of the things I most looked forward to was watching the sunrise.  From my home, there isn’t a good view of the sunrise, so while we were away, I couldn’t wait to watch the sunrise come up over the mountains!

The funny thing was that I didn’t even set an alarm that first morning- my eyes just popped open at 5am!  I’m definitely a morning person- but 5am is a bit early… thankfully He got me up right on time for the show 🙂

God is good!



enjoying the view…


early morning… you can still see the moon in the sky 🙂 

From the rising of the sun unto the going down of the same the Lord’s name is to be praised.  

Psalm 113:3

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What I’ve learned at 40…


I’ve learned that 40 really isn’t that old

and not to believe everything I’ve been told

the older I get, the faster time goes

and the wiser I get, the more I know I don’t know

I’m a mom, and a singer- but those aren’t the things

that define me because I’m a child of the King!

I’ve learned it is better to give than receive

and when I focus on others, the blessing’s on me

I’ve learned that it’s better to wait on the Lord

than to simply do things on my own accord

As a mom, I’m still learning to love and be stern

and I’m learning I’ve still got a lot more to learn!

I’ve learned that money doesn’t measure success

and no earthly treasure will make me feel blessed

As a wife, I’ve learned marriage is a marvelous ride

and it’s been a great joy having him by my side

I’m learning that life is too short to hold grudges

and each day I get better at heeding His nudges

As a kid I could not wait to be on my own

but now that’s the opposite of what I’ve been shown

I’m learning to trust and to always depend

on Jesus for everything– He’s my best friend 🙂

Every day that goes by is a blessing to me

and yes- I’m STILL singing because I am free!

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I am turning 40 on June 9th.  After dreading this number all year, it has turned out to be the most awesome birthday EVER!  I haven’t even officially turned 40, and it has already been so great!  We took an awesome vacation to Florida a couple of weeks ago, I had an amazing surprise (early) birthday party at my church, I traded in my mommy-mobile (my minivan) for a newer car, we voted in a new lead pastor at our church after an entire year of waiting, and my hubby is taking me away this weekend for a belated anniversary/ birthday celebration! Oh, and I also reached my goal weight today 🙂

God is good!!  I am thankful and so very BLESSED!!




joy comes in the morning



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I sat in silence watching you

reveling in daylight’s debut 


a front-row seat upon the sand 

morning sprung forth from His hand 



we witnessed daybreak’s glorious light 

across the glassy ocean bright 



like looking through a kaleidoscope 

the beauty filled my soul with hope 


as I sat in silence watching you 

reveling in daylight’s debut


I am a “sunset” girl- and I get to see them pretty often.

But getting to see an actual sunrise on the beach?  That’s a special occasion for sure!

It was going to be our last full day at the beach, and so we decided to get up super early and make the 5 minute drive to the ocean to watch the sun come up.  As I was drifting off to sleep the night before, my hubby asked me if I had set the alarm since we were going to get up at the crack of dawn to see this!  No- I had forgotten… huge shocker, lol… I forget EVERYTHING!!  But I just knew the good Lord will wake me up on time to get there, I smiled as I told my husband.


Sure enough, about 4:30am my eyes popped open.

We drove the short distance to the ocean and as I walked across the dunes, it was like a wonderland.  Misty, slightly cloudy- the ocean water glittered like diamonds, shimmered with rosy hues as it reflected the dawn sky.  It was just stunning.

DSC_0416.jpgI could have sat there all day long.  The Lord woke me up right on time, and He gave us a magnificent morning.

God is good.

…but joy comes in the morning.  Psalm 30:5


embrace the pace


embrace the pace 

ain’t got time to be busy!


here on the water 

the living is easy 


no agenda to follow 

no schedule to keep 


we don’t need no alarm 

just let me sleep!


embrace the pace 

ain’t got time to be busy!


here on the water-

the living is easy






Even if…


even if the sky 

grows dark and gray

even if the night

overshadows the day 

even if-

I will praise you


even if those clouds 

swell up with rain 

even if the sun 

never shines again 

even if- 

I will praise you 


Even if doubt 

whispers in my ear 

even if circumstance 

tries to bring fear

even if-

I will praise You. 


You turned my wailing into dancing;

you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy,

that my heart may sing your praises and not be silent.

Lord my God, I will praise you forever.

 Psalm 30


Burning embers


like burning embers 

 the daylight flickers and fades

calming the night sky


This is where “church” is for me-

anywhere there is an open sky and and a grand view of nature…


For many years, church was a place I went to spend time with God and to be filled up.  Church service was the only place I sang Christian songs, and the only time I earnestly prayed for much of my life.  I was a Sunday Christian.

Now I am overjoyed to be used by Him- to be serving Him and leading worship every week. It’s an awesome thing that now I “get to” serve and help lead others to worship and be “fed” after all those years of being a “consumer” of church…

but after a Sunday Service, I am often left feeling empty and completely drained.

So when I need to “recharge”, I spend time in nature… this is “going to church” for me now.


Last Sunday evening I jumped into the car and found a perfect spot to worship.  I turned the radio up loud and sang as the colors glowed in the sky.  I felt a peace come over me, and every care I had faded away with the daylight.

And the intimate evening sunset “worship” service was spectacular 🙂

Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe,  for our

“God is a consuming fire.”  

Hebrews 12:28-29


His word is in my heart like a fire, a fire shut up in my bones.

I am weary of holding it in; indeed, I cannot.  

Jeremiah 20:9



hummingbirds and being still…


 fluttering wings 

impressive speed

they hover, they wait

for their turn to feed 


sounds like helicopters

buzz through the sky

is it a bird? a plane?

it’s a hummingbird passing by…


 they give and they take

without worry or care

having faith that their portion 

will always be there 

I had the pleasure of spending a few moments with a dear friend of mine. She’s a kindred spirit and someone I affectionately refer to as one of my “church mommas”.

Having grown up in a big city, bird-watching and gardening were never high priorities for me.  One of the best things about moving out to the country is the ability to slow down just a little and take in the sights and sounds of nature.

My friend happened to call me when I was running here, there, and everywhere- and she asked if I wanted to stop by her house to get some fresh vegetables from her garden. I knew I didn’t have much time, but I told her I’d stop by for a few minutes.


which turned into a little bit more than a few minutes…

IMG_5044because I couldn’t stop watching those hummingbirds and butterflies fly around!

We sat on the porch together and watched those little birds zoom back and forth to the feeders and I was completely fascinated by them.

I noticed how they seemed to stop in mid air while they waited for their turn to drink from the hanging feeders. Their little wings fluttered so fast that you couldn’t even see them.

They were working harder being still and waiting than they were flying around!

Being still is an action that takes intentional effort

As I sat there on the porch with my friend, all the things I needed to get done that afternoon paled in comparison to what I was doing- being “still”…spending time in fellowship with my “church momma” and taking in the beautiful day He made for us.

Let all that I am wait quietly before God,  for my hope is in him.  

Psalm 62:5


There’s always a silver lining


silver-lined clouds on a beautiful day

a blessing is found 

when our praises abound

As we worship Him- He is refining

He shines on us grace 

When we seek His face

He alone is our silver lining


He knows every care

when our words aren’t there

there’s never a reason for hiding

His Son intercedes

He knows all our needs

He alone is our silver lining

FullSizeRenderRejoice always,  pray without ceasing,  in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.  1 Thessalonians 5:16-18