just because

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don’t need a reason

don’t need a holiday

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don’t need a million dollars 

or a firework display

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don’t need much 

but one thing is true 

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it’s the little things 

that make me love you 

My hubby and I have never been big gift-givers.  He has surprised me with the occasional big gift for my birthday or Christmas, but really what means the most are the little things.

Like the other day.

We were walking through a store and there was an unusually large display of gorgeous roses.  While my daughter was admiring them,  I noticed my husband turn to look at the roses and he lingered for a moment…

“Babe, how about you pick out one of these bouquets?”

I love flowers.

I am also frugal.

And I know that flowers have a short shelf-life, which also makes me think that it’s not something I really need to spend money on…

But in that moment, God knew exactly what I needed.

Over that last week I allowed myself to feel like a failure… as a mom, as a wife… a failure at whatever it was that I was doing.  I convinced myself that I wasn’t good enough.  It was all in my head, but that little lie raged inside of me.  I tried to fight it all week.  I read scriptures,  prayed, did all the things I knew to do and yet it was still there and I couldn’t escape that feeling that I was worthless.

But in my husband’s eyes I was worthy of those flowers…just because he loves me. In fact, it meant more to me because it was spontaneous and not because it was a special occasion.

And this week, God has used those beautiful roses to remind me of His perfect love for me, too.  He is right on time, every time!  Every time I have walked into the living room, those roses have made me smile.

He loves me just because.  And so does my husband.

In fact, there isn’t anything I could do to make Him love me more!

He loves me for who I am in Him, not for what I do! 

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 For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast.    Ephesians 2:8-9

 

 

 

 

stayin’ alive

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I basked in their peak today

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rose petals unfurled

all the way

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oh how I wish

I could make them stay

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alive

for even just

one

more

day

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My hubby brought home these lovely peaches roses for me last week to celebrate our 20th wedding anniversary.  They were the same color as the roses I held on our wedding day.  They were so lovely, and I wanted to take a few pics of them before they wilted…

ah, ha, ha, ha stayin’ alive!

I bet you’re singing that song now 😉

Which reminded me of something my youngest daughter showed me recently…

She came running in the room, snickering, to show me what she had pinned on Pinterest-

“Mom- this is TOTALLY you!”

Now, I could have been TOTALLY offended, but instead I laughed.  Both of my girls crack me up.  They are becoming more teenager-ish by the hour.

I actually did LOL at that one…because I do LOVE taking pictures!  Of practically everything!  

So, maybe I’m not a “professional” photographer- but while I may not make a single cent,  I am paid in full in the joy it brings me to capture beautiful things and moments on camera!  Just the other day I was looking at pictures on my phone and happened to scroll through over a year’s worth of pictures, and I was so grateful for every single moment I was reminded of.  Even my youngest daughter’s numerous crazy selfies brought a smile to my face!

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And you know what is so special about looking back at all the pictures we take?  It’s not about how we looked in them, or where they were… it’s about who we were with and how we felt during those moments.

And these flowers, well they are going in the trash soon…but when I see these rose pics I will remember the love I felt for my hubby as he ran up the stairs to surprise me that morning last week.  Priceless! 

So whatever hobbies bring you joy- even if you aren’t the greatest at it- keep on doing what you love!

And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.  Colossians 3:17

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Love needs no words

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love is

a language

where no words

are needed

Sometimes I need an interpreter so others can understand me.  Because I mix up my words. all. the. time.

My husband and I had just started dating, and I was still in high school.  Several nights a week, I worked a part-time job which is where I happened to meet my boyfriend. One evening, my then-boyfriend (now-husband) picked me up from work to take me home.  I was so tired.  Tired from going to school all day and then standing on my feet at work.  I confess, I have never had a lot of stamina, and I am always tired… and sometimes I say things that make absolutely no sense. Ok…lots of times. But the funny thing is- when you really know one another- you just know what the other person is thinking. I remember the rain falling on this particular evening, and I was staring out the window as he pulled into my driveway.

I’m so tall…” I said in the most exasperated voice I could muster, staring out the window with my eyes barely open.

I heard my future husband start to laugh.

And I looked at him, totally confused…

“Babe, don’t you mean you’re so tired?” he said.

I began to laugh as I realized what I actually said.  The funny thing is – I am tall- 5’10” to be exact,  but he knew exactly what I was thinking when my words failed me.

You know what’s awesome about that?  God does the same thing with us. He knows us so intimately that He understands our hearts, and knows the intention behind our words and our actions.  We never have to lament over our words, or worry about how they might come across- because He knows us, and He knows our heart so intimately.

Sometimes I have to remind myself this when it comes to my relationships.  How many times do you read too much into someone’s words?  Instead of misinterpreting them, I need to remember their heart and believe that the best way to receive their words is always with love.

To this day, I still say “I’m so tall” to my hubby… and we both laugh. Because after all these years, all I have to do is utter that phrase… and it takes us right back to that special night- nearly 20 years ago!

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.  It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.  Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.  It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.  Love never fails.  1 Corinthians 13:4-8

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