ebb and flow

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this morning’s sunrise…

Though days and nights may ebb and flow

up and down, around they go

our circumstances- much the same

but steadfast always is Your Name

My Solid Rock- Emmanuel!

When I choose to worship- all is well! 

I lift my hands, my voice I raise

To You, I sing my songs of praise!

The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.  Psalm 18:2

Sweet Surrender

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In order to bloom

we must shed 

our dead

leaves

and let them fall at His feet

in sweet

surrender

Like an onion, I feel Him peeling back layers and layers of my “self”… revealing His heart and His desires.  I can so easily get caught up in the moment and get all tangled up in my emotions… I can be soo happy!!!   and then the next moment so frustrated…or excited,  tired, helpless…

And sometimes I fail to remember that I am, in fact, NONE of these things…

I am His

And with each dead leaf that falls, with every moment of surrender- I feel released of the “self” I know all too well.

He must become greater; I must become less  John 3:30

Search me, God, and know my heart;
    test me and know my anxious thoughts.
 See if there is any offensive way in me,
    and lead me in the way everlasting.  Psalm 139

 

You Take My Breath Away

“You Take My Breath Away”

Help me to see Your goodness in the land of the living

I see the beauty around me and I can’t stop praising

Praising You for who You are, for what You do, for what You’ve done

who am I that I would be saved by Your Son

You take my breath away

Amazed by how You show me that You love me

without Your grace in my life where would I be?

You are my strength, You are my rock

You are my calm in the storm

You steady me and ready me

and You keep me safe from harm.

You take my breath away

And even the rocks cry out

when I have no voice to praise You

when You take my breath away

I wrote this song about a month ago.  I had been dealing with minor health issues- allergies, a cough that wouldn’t quit, inability to sing, and just feeling down-right tired and miserable.  I was so tired of feeling sick.  Singing- the very thing that brings me the most joy was something I was not able to do.   I still spent time with God… but I had to be a little more creative with it.  I prayed, read the Bible more, and I wrote poetry.  Then one day I told God how frustrated I was for not being able to sing- or talk-  for so long.

And that morning, a verse popped out at me-

I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.  Psalm 27:13

I began praying to God- that He would help me focus on Him and not my circumstance.  That He would show me His goodness and get my eyes of myself and help me to stop having a pity party.  And day by day, I began to feel better.  I was more aware of His presence and less of my own ailments.  It was as if He painted each sunset and colored each mountain top just for me- I would tear up at every little beautiful thing… He literally took my breath away with His creation! He was so clearly working on me to worship Him in other ways.  There is so much more to worship than singing!   He used that time to open my eyes to His beauty around me and to hear His voice.  Time to remember all that He has done for me.  Time to be thankful for all He has blessed me with, and a little more time to be quiet and let Him do the talking!

Be still, and know that I am God-   Psalm 46:10

Thank You, Lord, for never ceasing to amaze me with your unfailing love.  Thanks for opening my eyes a little more, and for helping me to be quiet and listen to You.  Thank You for showing me Your goodness in the most awesome ways! 

Waiting on You

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I am going to share one of my pet peeves today…

Countless times I have gone to a grocery store and have brought my girls with me.  Those of you with children know what a challenge this can be… so the fact that I make it up to the checkout counter in one piece with both girls and have not lost my marbles is a small miracle in itself.  So after everything has been rung up, I am reaching into my wallet to pull out my debit card and I hear the cashier say, “Waiting on you!”  Well, don’t you see that I am trying as fast as I can to get out of here and I have my card in hand, about ready to swipe??  

Patience is something I am severely lacking.  I cannot even bear to shop online because I do not want to wait 3-5 shipping days for my purchased items to be in-hand.  I pray for patience daily. I am not proud of this, but I also find myself wishing away the summer.  I have been blessed with two beautiful, healthy, fun girls, but summertime definitely requires more multi-tasking, disciplining, more balancing of “hats”, and much less “quiet” time-  and part of me longs for the routine of school days.

And as I am praying for patience, I see that God is speaking to me.  I opened my Bible and on the front page is this verse-

Children are a gift from the Lord; They are a reward from Him.- Psalm 127:3

And it hits me like a ton of bricks… My girls are a blessing- a gift from the Lord.  Stop wishing away these summer days and have joy in these moments. Enjoy being in His presence and enjoy the gifts He has given me.  

And then I realize that He is probably saying the same thing to me that the cashier says… “I’m waiting on you”…He is waiting on me…to be thankful and grateful for what I have and to stop complaining about all the things I can’t do, but to say I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength!  He is waiting on me to see His goodness in each and every moment.  He is waiting on me to see Him in every circumstance… and to focus on all the blessings He has given me!

So the LORD must wait for you to come to him so he can show you his love and compassion.  Isaiah 30:18

And He gently reminds me how patient He has been with me…How grateful I am for His grace and His love… and I am reminded that living in fellowship with Him each and every day is a blessing that I do not deserve.