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seasons in between

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I walked to the beat 

of falling leaves 

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beneath my feet 

leaves thick as thieves

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I watched the foliage 

drift and sway 

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on this breezy, balmy

autumn day 

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I wanted to hit the pause button again this morning. This is my favorite time of year… that time when we are still full with Thanksgiving JOY and yet we anticipate all the excitement the Christmas Season brings!!   And secretly, I wish I could hoard pumpkin spice EVERYTHING so that I could savor it a bit longer…

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Speaking of this in-between season, I’ve got a ‘tween at home…  She marches to her own beat, and I honestly don’t know what’s going to come out of her mouth from moment to moment.  A strong willed child, she’s also a delightful mix of sarcasm, humor and wit.  Her name is “Sophia” which actually means wisdom.

I was out running errands with both girls the other day, and my oldest commented that I’m getting old.  My jaw dropped as I turned to her with a look of disbelief that she would say such a horrid thing!

Well, I guess there’s a little bit of truth to that- I will hit the big 4-0 in June….ugghh….

Without skipping a beat, my youngest chimes in with her words of wisdom- “Mom, I like that you’re getting older- it means your more experienced!”

My heart warmed just a little bit as I turned to look at her lovingly.  “Soph, that’s so sweet!”

“Well, I just said it to make you feel better.  You ARE old!”

Sigh.   

But then, just a few days later, she surprised me again…

I went to my favorite grocery store the other day- Trader Joe’s.  If you’ve never been- you are missing out.  I love everything about this place!  The employees treat me like a long, lost friend- always eager to chit-chat and offer suggestions of new things to try.  I was desperate, I mean DESPERATE for more Pumpkin Spice k-cups, but, alas, they were all out.

At check out, the cashier asked me if I found everything I was looking for.  I told him how I wanted more Pumpkin Spice coffee.  We both commiserated over the ending of the “pumpkin season”,  and he shed an imaginary tear with me.

Then my  daughter piped up-

“But Mom, it wouldn’t be as special if you had it all the time!” 

So true.

Which reminds me to treasure those special days with these girls… because just like pumpkin spice- they are only young for a “season”!

“It’s been my experience that you can nearly always enjoy things if you make up your mind firmly that you will.” – L.M. Montgomery 

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Now I See

 

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Clouds swirled in, I heard them call-

“come see us up the mountaintop!” 

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breezes swished in the apple-crisp air 

leaves swirled ’round without a care 

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the wind- it whirled and howled about

orchestrating a most glorious shout!  

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I felt the marvelous presence of Grace 

and His glory surrounded this heavenly place 

I awoke one recent morning to the most beautiful sight- streams of sunlight  were peeking through my mini-blinds in my bedroom, shedding light on blankets and girls and dogs strewn about our bedroom floor.  We had an adventurous evening the day before, and our girls decided to sleep on our bedroom floor, along with the dogs that night.

I was the first one awake the next morning, and I saw that moment as a gift from the Lord.  The girls looked like burritos- rolled up in blankets, and the dogs were curled up beside them.  My husband slept soundly beside me, and I was completely overwhelmed with God’s love.  In that moment, I realized everything that mattered to me was in that one room- and it was more than enough.  I had to fight back tears as I thought of the girls getting older, and how things will someday change.  I can’t bear to think of the day when they leave home…so I savored this rare moment when ALL of us were together, slumbering in the same room.

That overwhelming feeling of love was with me the entire day.  The girls and I went to the movies, and as we came out of the theater, we noticed the temperature had dropped significantly and the clouds were swirling in the sky.  On the way home, we went up to Carter’s Mountain to get some apples and cider donuts.  The view was just spectacular.

I have so much to be thankful for.

“…There is one thing I do know: I was blind, but now I see!”- John 9:25

 

 

 

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rejected

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While I was out running errands today, I had a conversation with a stranger who told me she had just quit smoking.  I asked her how long it had been since she had her last smoke.  Just yesterday.  I told her every single moment was a small victory for her to celebrate.  I encouraged her and let her talk about her smoking addiction.  After talking with her for quite some time, I felt the Lord nudging me to invite her to a special service we’re having at our church next week.  It’s something I am really excited about- 9 churches coming together to worship and give thanks… 9 churches in our community uniting as one in Christ Jesus!  With all the division in the world right now, this is the perfect time for this!

I waited until I knew it was the right moment to ask her… Do you go to church? I asked her, nonchalantly.

No- I don’t do that kind of thing.

Well this would be the perfect service to come to then!  I explained how a bunch of churches in our community were coming together…

No, I’m not interested in that.  

And immediately I felt that door slam shut.  She changed the subject quickly, clearly ready to end the conversation at that point. It was awkward, to say the least!

As she continued to make small talk, I started feeling a little sorry for myself.  I’d been rejected.  She didn’t ask me the usual “what church do you go to?” or even say the polite “I’ll think about it”… just a flat out NO. I hate rejection. It’s hard to put yourself out there…to be obedient to invite strangers to church.  Who am I kidding?  It’s hard to just flat have conversations and LOVE people.

I said goodbye and told her that I’d be praying for her as she continued to break the nicotine habit.  “You can DO it!” I told her. Then I then went to my car, feeling like a complete DORK and a REJECT.

And He brought to my mind this verse-

As the rain and the snow
    come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
    without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
    so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
1so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
    It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
    and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.- Isaiah 55

All He asks us to do is be obedient. We throw out the seeds… HE does the watering.

As I drove home, I started to replay the words of our conversation in my mind…and then I looked ahead of me and the license plate in front of me said it all.

On the license plate was this-

GD LOVS U

And in that instant, those feelings of being a complete nerd and a rejected vanished.  He loves you.  And He loves me.  And He loves that stranger I spoke to today.

Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.  Galatians 6:9

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For such a time as this

 

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On this election day, I woke up with a feeling of complete peace.  Months ago I, too, worried about what would happen to our country after this election.  But today I give thanks and praise the Lord for our democratic process.

For such a time as this, the Lord led me to read the book of Esther.I have always been fond of the name Esther as it conjures up beautiful memories of my Grandmother.  She was the epitome of a “southern belle”.  She spoke with a delicate southern drawl, always looked fashionable, she was kind, and always wore her makeup.

Esther of the Old Testament was a beautiful jewish girl, one who loved God and lived out her faith through obedience to Him. King Xerxes was King of the Persian empire and he asked for his queen Vashti to flaunt her beauty before the people- but she refused.  Xerxes hosted a beauty pageant to find his new queen and Esther won his favor.

Esther’s cousin, Mordecai, became a minor official in the Persian government, and also uncovered an assassination plan against King Xerxes.  Mordecai told Esther of this plan, and she warned the King of what was about to happen- winning his favor and trust.

The King’s highest official was an evil man named Haman.  Haman hated the jews and especially hated Mordecai. Haman devised a plan to annihilate the jewish people and Mordecai told Esther about this –

For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father’s family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?”  Esther 4:14

Esther urged her people to fast and pray for their deliverance.  She then invited King Xerxes and Haman to a banquet, revealing her Jewish heritage, and also revealing Haman’s plan to annihilate her people.

The Lord had his hand on Esther and she was able to influence King Xerxes to do the right thing.  Even though King Xerxes was not a godly man, God still used Him for His purpose.  In a rage, King Xerxes had Haman immediately killed and he appointed Mordecai to be his highest official.

So this morning I casted my vote- knowing that we have to be obedient to do what He is calling us to do… to be obedient to say what He is calling us to say.  I trust that His ways are higher than mine, and that He is STILL on the throne!

And like King Xerxes, there is no perfect leader for our nation. But God can still use His people to influence them for His good.

 if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land.  

2 Chronicles 7:14  

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