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Breaking the (food) chain

on April 28, 2015

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peel me like an onion

heavy on the layers

I shed the outer skin

as I go to You in prayer

crying as I’m sliced up

a little more, I’m diced up 

I’m ready for the next plan

dump me in the pan

straight into the fryer 

turn the heat up higher

cook me till I’m done 

I’m in refiner’s fire

the hotter I’m becoming 

the more clearly I can see

molting all these layers 

leads me to transparency 

Tears welled in my eyes as I sliced the onion in half. I broke through that top layer of skin, and the tears freely flowed down my face.  Onions have a funny way of doing that to me.

I tossed them into the hot frying pan to sauté them. They sizzled as I stirred them back and forth. I was no longer tearing up, but noticed the sweetness of the aroma.  After they had been sautéd, their translucency was striking.  

Isn’t it something that an onion could be so drastically different in appearance, in taste, aroma, and in sight- after experiencing a little bit of “heat”?  Honestly, I don’t like being uncomfortable.  That’s why we all like comfort food, right?  It makes us feel good.  But it’s only an emotional reaction- not the real thing.

For  my entire life, I have used food for reward, punishment, pleasure, and emotional comfort.

I’m tired of being comfortable. I want to be all God wants me to be- and I really do believe that He wants me to be free from this ridiculous food obsession.

I woke up this morning, ready to cook some eggs, and I tried to tell myself that it was what I really wanted for breakfast.  Not true. I really just wanted a ginormous bowl of oatmeal.  But more than oatmeal, I want to break that chain…the never ending cycle of obsessing over food and using food for comfort.

And the only answer is more Jesus. And less self-gratification.

Less of me (literally and figuratively)…more of Him.

I’ve jumped into the frying pan with both feet, I’m feeling the heat, and I’m ready to be changed!

God- make me uncomfortable so I find comfort in YOU not FOOD! 

eat to live, not live to eat

There is power in His Name to break every chain!

Always be joyful.  Never stop praying- 1 Thessalonians 5:16-17 

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17 responses to “Breaking the (food) chain

  1. popswally says:

    Such a GREAT post! Thank you for the awesome image if what God does with our life when we submit to HIS cleansing and refining fire!!!

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  2. paulfg says:

    Fine spiritual dining again ((hugs))

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    • Julie Harris says:

      Spiritual dining is more fulfilling than even the largest buffet of the finest food 🙂 He is faithful to help me in every area- when I ask! Food has been a life-long struggle for me…

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      • paulfg says:

        I see you serving the bread of life here Julie. You keep bringing a morsel that I find grows inside. I read your words so often in awe – how are you so gifted to bring an “ordinary everyday something” yet allow me to walk away so incredibly touched and connected. That ordinary thing now extraordinary.

        And as someone now seeing my weekly weigh-in producing a number in excess of my optimum number – on the earthly food side I relate!! 🙂

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  3. deharris2 says:

    You might find Andrew Murray’s book, The School of Obedience helpful in your quest to control your appetite.
    Love reading your blog.

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    • Julie Harris says:

      Thanks for the suggestion- I will check it out! It all comes down to surrendering my own will to His- and complete obedience – even in the little things (like food!!) 😀

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  4. Will says:

    He must increase, and I must decrease.

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  5. Till the Master, looking down on the silver of His fining, shall behold reflected there His own image clear and shining. ~Annie Johnson Flint

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