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Children of Light


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Live as children of light – Ephesians 5:8

Yesterday evening, I had everything set up perfectly- the lighting was just right, my laptop was carefully placed atop two boxes stacked on our barstool from the kitchen.  The dog was quiet, the girls were engrossed in homework- or so I thought!   I had planned everything to the “T” and sat down to record  a song…

About halfway through the song, Sophie surprised me and decided to join me.  She smiled and waved as I played.  And my first thought was to reprimand her for not listening, for not staying in her room and for “ruining” the video.  But as I saw the light in her eyes, I immediately realized that moments like these are not things we “plan”, and sometimes we can plan so much that we miss those God moments and what He is teaching us…. and her light shines so bright, that I couldn’t stop myself from smiling and thanking the Lord for her contagious joy as she sang along with me.

The song is called “Dancing With Jesus” and I wrote it this past spring.  It is about a time of worship- a vision of Jesus and I, dancing in a garden, rejoicing together over answered prayers.  As I was singing last night, Sophie reminds me that worship is spontaneous and not something that has to be “planned”.  It’s not about having everything perfect.  It is about being aware of His presence all the time.   Sometimes I get so fixated on the details that I miss the bigger picture.

Happy 8th Birthday, Soph, and thanks for shinning your bright light and worshiping with me last night!

And David danced before the Lord with all his might. 2 Samuel 6:14

Dancing with Jesus

It’s a new day
I’m singing your praises
thankful and grateful for all that you are
Driving around
sun shining down
and I see a vision of
you and me
Your presence is real
I’m moved in my soul
I grab your hands
as we sway to and fro
I’m dancing with Jesus
Singing, rejoicing,
and worshipping him
I’m dancing with Jesus
I rest in your arms and I know
You are with me wherever I go…
A moment it was
frozen in time
a glimmer of heaven
and what it might be
Amazing and sweet
feeling complete
I surrender all that I am
at your feet..
How sweet it will be
when Your face, I see
when I get to heaven
and dance with you there
Forever more
and always I’m Yours
In your presence I will
forever adore…. you


Finding joy

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 The grass is always greener on the other side isn’t it?  When I was a little girl I thought my life would just be amazing and perfect only if… I was thinner… or didn’t tower over everyone else with my ginormous daddy long legs!   As I got into junior high and high school I thought life would be just dandy if I could buy clothes like all the “cool girls” from The Limited or any number of other popular clothing stores for teens back in the day. Maybe if I had a better car, or a nicer home…

My husband and I have talked many times about the “things” that we wanted.  A bigger TV.  Maybe if I could finally lose weight!  Well, guess what… I did that, too.  And still, it wasn’t enough. We search and search for happiness.  I have even been guilty of counting on my husband or turning to friends to make me happy…or even food..  But you know what- there is no house big enough, no sack of money large enough, no dessert sweet enough  to  fill up that empty feeling we have.

Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice.  Philippians 4:4

The first time I felt overwhelming joy and peace was the moment I surrendered my life to Jesus. I finally realized that I couldn’t keep searching for things or looking to other people to make me happy.  Happiness is a fleeting emotion that comes and goes.  Joy is having the love and peace of Christ living within you, filling you up, moment by moment.  Joy is knowing Him and receiving His abounding grace and living in fellowship with HIm each and every day.   Joy is knowing that each day we are here on earth and each breath we take is a precious gift- one that could be taken away at any moment.  Joy is knowing that there is more to life than the “things” of this earth.

Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.  Philippians 4:7

The more I seek Him, the sweeter this verse becomes.  I thank Him for every blessing He has given me- including my husband, who so eloquently expresses through poetry the endless search for peace and joy in the poem below.   He wrote the words, and I put it to song.  May He continually give you peace and joy as you seek Him!

Click here to hear the song-


The things I think will bring me joy,  

The newest car, the latest toy

Are nothing but the Devil’s ploy

To keep my eyes from you


What I think is love is only lust 

Consuming fire that fades to dust

A poisonous distraction just 

To turn my eyes from you


I’ve been deceived

The world’s not what I thought it was


I can’t get what I want because

The Devil’s covered up my eyes

And whispered in my ears his lies

But truth is such a sweet surprise


My faith is shifting like the sand

It’s always making me demand

Proof that you are in command

And that your word is true


Peace is missing from my life

Replaced by arguments and strife

And worry stabs me like a knife

But I know this is true:

You give me joy no matter what my circumstance

The love you showed has given me a second chance

You give me faith that’s firm in your unchanging grace

And peace is mine when I make the time

To seek Your face.

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Most mornings I sit at the piano and sing whatever He puts on my heart…sometimes I sing my prayers.  One morning I wrote this song as I prayed to God.   So often I feel helpless- not knowing what to do, or what direction to go in.   It’s those moments like these  that I find comfort in knowing He is in control and He is with me.

 Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words.  

Romans 8:26-27

Many times  I don’t even know how to pray or what to say… but this verse brings comfort to me-knowing that Jesus Himself is interceding and knows the deepest worries and desires of my heart.   As overwhelmed as life can get at times, I want to passionately pursue Christ and be obedient to all He asks of me.  He is everything my heart desires.

 And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.  Colossians 3:17

And I give thanks for these moments of complete helplessness, for He gently reminds me that I can do nothing without Him and that He is all that I need.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.  That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Corinthians 12:9-10


Here I am in this moment waiting for You

To hear my cry, to hear my heart beating for You

and I have fallen so far

I don’t have the strength so I bow to all You are

I’m helpless without You

and I need You, come and fill my heart

I’m helpless away from You

You are everything that I desire

So I give to You my sacrifice of praise

I sing to You with everything I am

Lord, hear my voice, in this moment calling to You

I need You more than ever before.


What color are His eyes?


I am a little nostalgic today as I realize that in just a few short days the girls will be back in school.  Bittersweet, I tell you.  It has gone by fast!  I am amazed at what my girls have taught me each day.  As we were driving to meet their teachers for the new school year, my youngest asks me a random question- “What color are his eyes?”

I asked her who she was talking about.  Pretty random thing to ask, I thought.  She said “umm… Jesus?”  Like “duh, did you really have to ask that question?!”  You know how totally lame us parents can be at times! This is the same daughter who wears mix-matched things each day and said to me one day “Mom,  you don’t KNOW fashion like I do!”  Oh, to have that kind of confidence and charisma!

Back to her question… I said “Well, I don’t really know what color His eyes are.”  I have never really thought about what color his eyes would be.  I think they would be warm and twinkling-  teary from the love and empathy He would feel for everyone.  I think they would be piercing- looking into the depths of our souls… perhaps they would shimmer like a prism.  And those thoughts reminded me of something she asked me a long time ago.

I was putting the girls to bed one night, and out of the blue, she asked me what God looked like.  I thought about it for a moment, and then I told her that He is in everything.  I see God when I look into her eyes and know that He made her.  Both of my girls have amazingly blue eyes.  I see Him in the beautiful sunsets.    He made everything and everything comes from Him.  And I told her that God is everywhere and that He is love.

But anyone who does not love does not know God, for God is love.  1 John 4:8

That night, I tucked her in and immediately sat down at the piano and wrote a song.   I thank God for His many blessings and the gift of capturing these  precious memories and putting them to music!

You can hear it here-

He Is Everywhere

One day she asked me, “Momma, what does God look like?”

I said, “Honey, He is everywhere, His love is all around us.”

And He is everywhere, He is everywhere, 

He is everywhere, His love is all around us. 

I see Him when I look into your 

beautiful blue eyes.

And I see Him when He paints the sunset

across the skies.

And He is everywhere, He is everywhere,

He is everywhere, His love is all around us. 

I told her God is there to comfort 

and catch us when we fall.

And God sent His Son to save us

and show us He loves us all.

And He is everywhere, He is everywhere,

He is everywhere- because God is love!



Let the little children come to me…

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Any adult who has volunteered for a Vacation Bible School program knows that it is anything but a vacation!  There is lots of praying, planning, organizing, preparing, and coordinating of schedules and volunteers to pull it all off.  But somehow, it always comes together in the end!

I may have a little rhythm, but a good dancer- I am definitely not!  Nevertheless, I pulled up my cowboy boots every day and taught the rip-roarin’, rootin’ tootin’, rodeo songs and dances each night (along with my trusty sidekick!) for our VBS this past week- all for the love of Jesus.  I really must love Him to embarrass myself in this manner.  Even my girls snickered as they watched me galloping on the stage.  Even so, as I look out from the stage and see the wide-eyed children excitedly worshiping, singing, and dancing, my pride melts away.  It is worth it all!

One evening at our closing session, the sound system was not working.  Much to my delight, the children easily remembered the words and tune to the evening’s song and belted out the song  a cappella with much joy-

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son,that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”- John 3:16.

I am quickly reminded how easy it is for children to learn God’s Word.  It is humbling see how God uses music to impress His Word on the hearts of these children!  We sang songs about God’s love, His truth, trusting Him, how He rescues us from sin-and all of the VBS workers and volunteers are working together to help plant seeds. Planting seeds of God’s Word that will hopefully take deep roots in the hearts of these children and will someday grow and bloom!  Is there anything better than that?!

And the best gift of all was having one of my daughters come up to me after the last night of VBS.  We were still at church, straightening things and tidying up and I noticed that she and another little girl were talking quietly together by the front doors.  I could see that they were folding hands. Then my daughter came over to me and said that now her friend had Jesus in her heart.  She said that she told her one of the Bible Stories they had learned this past week and she asked her young friend if she had Jesus in her heart.  Her friend, who is 3,  said no, so my daughter prayed with her.  My daughter  said “Mommy, everything’s good, because she has Jesus in her heart now!”  It was so simply put, and so beautiful.  In my daughter’s  heart, all was right with the world because she knew that her friend had accepted Christ as her Savior!

This illustrated to me how important it is for children to be exposed to the awesomeness of VBS every year!  The more they become exposed to God’s Word and hear about Him through Sunday School, Church services, and VBS, the more opportunities we have to plant seeds in their hearts.   We can never underestimate how God will use these experiences in our children’s  lives!

But Jesus said, “Let the children come to me. Don’t stop them! For the Kingdom of Heaven belongs to those who are like these children.”- Matthew 19:14